What is 'New Year' to me?


Hi everyone! Another year has come and gone, and once again, I spent New Year's quietly with my parents. It was a bit of a somber moment for me, as I'm realizing that in just a few years, I'll be turning 40.

At my age, living a simple life and being single doesn't bother me much. It's not adulthood itself that feels daunting—it's the reality of aging. My body no longer feels as youthful, and maintaining my diet or enjoying things that others might find suitable seems more challenging now. Yet, there's a part of me that appreciates the process of growing older and maturing. Each year brings new experiences and insights that I couldn't have grasped before. Aging has taught me resilience, patience, and how to better understand my emotions. Despite it all, I still feel like my 25-year-old self, cherishing the freedom to choose what I love—playing games, traveling, collecting cute things, watching anime, and indulging in hobbies that bring me joy.

At this stage of life, I find myself meeting potential partners who are focused on building a family than that when I was still 25 years old, where . It's not the idea of being "not married yet" that unsettles me; it's the thought of life after marriage. Many of my friends struggle to make ends meet and keep their families together. It's eye-opening to see how common it is for marriages to face challenges, even after just a few years. The "what ifs" cross my mind—what if my future husband ends up feeling the same? Life, as always, is full of surprises. But, I am still keeping my thought to build my own family.

On a brighter note, I've discovered that I can do things now that I once thought impossible when I was younger. As they say, "the older you get, the more experiences you encounter, shaping who you become." It's true—life's challenges and triumphs have made me braver and more capable.

That said, New Year's isn't my favorite time of year. I haven't been able to travel to the places I've dreamed of visiting at this point in my life. There are still so many things I want to do, but for now, they're just out of reach. 

Despite occasionally thinking I've grown older, I never truly feel that way when I'm out with people my age. It often feels like we're back in our university days, still youthful and energetic. Perhaps this is because I frequently interact with Gen Z, who are just entering the workforce, which keeps me feeling that I am old.




I know life is a journey with its own timing. Each phase brings unique opportunities and lessons, even if they don't always align with my expectations. While I can't explore the world as much as I'd like right now, I've learned to find joy in the smaller, everyday moments—whether it's savoring a good book, immersing myself in a new hobby, or simply spending quality time with loved ones.

This year, I'm setting a goal to focus more on self-growth and embracing the present. It's easy to get caught up in comparing my life to others or lamenting what I haven't achieved yet. But I've come to realize that everyone's path is different, and there's no "right" timeline for accomplishing things.

One of the greatest lessons I've learned is the importance of gratitude. Even though I may not have reached all my goals, there's still so much to be thankful for—health, family, friends, and the ability to keep pursuing my passions. This mindset shift has helped me approach each day with a renewed sense of purpose and positivity.

Looking ahead, I'm excited to continue growing, learning, and experiencing life in all its complexity. Whether it's through travel, personal achievements, or simply enjoying the little things, I know that every moment contributes to the lesson of who I am becoming.

So, as we step into this new year, I invite you to join me in embracing life's surprises, challenges, and joys. Let's focus on what truly matters, celebrate our progress, and keep moving forward, one step at a time.

Despite having to think that I grew old, but I never feel that way whenever I going out with people same age with me. It does feel like during my university moment, I feel we are still young. Perhaps it is because I often face to face with gen Z whom are currently entering work force


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